Scriptorium

Well the time is drawing near when I will have to loose my two kids (cats). Unfortunately I have to choose between my future or my cats. I am trying to find homes for them, but if I need be they will have to go to the Boulder Humane Society.

I find myself feeling like a jerk. My oldest cat, Luna, will not be missed as much as my younger cat Ghost. Luna has become a very impersonal cat. She hides from everyone, and only wants to be petted once or twice then runs off “crazy” scared of nothing.

Ghost is such a lovable cat. He knows when people are having a bad day and wants to cuttle and make people smile. He loves to sit on laps and purrs frequently.

The worst part is they feel like my kids. I have spent most of my life feeling unloved and they have helped fill that space.

I can (and really must) believe they will find a good family and be happy there. If I spend time wondering or worrying that they have been put to sleep it will hurt too much because cats like Ghost are such a sweet and friendly cat.

It’s been a long time since I’ve cried and I hope losing them won’t be one of those times.